…since my last post. I don’t know why I even have a blog, I’m not nearly interesting enough of a person to have one, and I procrastinate too much for it to be worthwhile. But here I am, It’s been close to a year since I posted. Life does move fast when you’re not looking and when you don’t need it to, I left my friends in Stockholm way too soon, and in some cases, not soon enough. It was a turbulent year with lots of emotions and drama. Yet I’ve never grown so close to a group of people as my classmates. The summer went by with a haze, my idyllic vision of walking by fields of wheat and rye didn’t take place. Instead I was privy to the vivid hallucinations of chemically induced madness. Fun at first, overwhelming later. And just when I thought the summer would go on for ages like a bad trip. Autumn hit with it swift cold winds. With it came the academic train. I am now a student of the prestigious University of Uppsala and a member of the student body. Why is it I don’t feel any different from all those years in high school? Lectures about nonsensical stuff, falling behind from having other, more interesting and more fun books to read. Why should I read about the economic habits of the Trobriand people of New Guinea, instead of FitzChivalry, Farseer of the Farseer Trilogy by Robin Hobb? Granted I’ve already read the trilogy thrice, It still beats the work of Hylland-Erikssen in terms of pleasure. And now its 04:47, supposedly I am to wake up at 9.30 to get bring the shattered pieces of myself out of bed and get ready for today’s seminar. I am somewhat dubious of the chances of success.
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Our enviroment is in a state of despair, we continue to burn fossil fuels that damages our ecosystems and pollutes our air. If we keep doing this and at this rate, we are most certainly a doomed race.
Many today believe that the enviromental movement is all about saving endangered species or saving the rain forest, granted most of the environmental movement is just that, or simply wanting to have a clean place to live. But what they don’t seem to understand is that it is really about saving ourselves, about the continuation of the human race. The big oil companies that make a living processing fossil fuels are not in the mood to stop making money, so they will do everything in their power to make us continue to buy their products. To make us poison ourselves and die a slow, gruesome death. This is not about saving our “home”. Yes, the earth is our only home and we should take care of it, But we are stupid to think that we are a threat to this great blue planet. We are lice on its back, and we can’t make things so worse that this unbelievably beautiful planet should cease to exist for good, we are NOT that powerful, even though we would like to think we are. I am going to qoute a man called Oren Lyons, Faith keeper of the Turtle clan of the Onondaga and Seneca native americans, and professor of American Studies.
“What if we choose to eradicate ourselves from this Earth, by whatever means? The Earth goes nowehere. And in time, it will regenerate, and all the lakes will be pristine. The rivers, the waters, the mountains, everything will be green again. It’ll be peaceful. There may not be people, but the Earth will regenerate. And you know why? – Because the Earth has all the time in the world and we don’t.
The earth has all the time in the world, and we don’t. Think about that for a minute?
Many cultures of all places of the world call our planet, the sixth planet from the sun, Mother Earth. Why? Because it feeds us, warms us, give us a place to stay, and what do we do? We kill each other, we pollute its air and we destroy our homes. And for what? Money? Religion? Power?
It’s an enigma, that we go to such lenghts to drive our own race into extinction, it’s a mystery to me. and I’m not smart enough to solve it. But I am smart enough to see that there is no future for us we continue to kill ourselves with this poison. I’m not saying that we stop driving cars, stop riding buses and start turning of our lights, these are necessities in our modern society, this needs to be changed on a global level, the politicans need to show what they are good for, otherwise they will have no land to rule, and no people to lie to if there is nothing left of us. And yes, they will most certainly be gone too, that lovely thought should hopefully scare them into action. So don’t turn of your lights. Turn on your brains, and send a message to those in power, do something or we will do something to you!
And finally, I want to end with a qoute from the late great comedian George Carlin, and he had this to say about the enviroment.
“The planet is fine, it’s the people that are fucked!”
I just learnt that our fights for net neutrality have been utterly useless, USA still has the power to shut down any website in the world, and they have just abused that power, this is not a joke, this is a declaration of war against the internet and its freedom of speech.
Read this article for more information(via Reddit), get active!
this is so fucked.
I read an article in the swedish paper Aftonbladet today, that a swede by the name of Carl-Henric Svanberg has been appointed to save BP’s image….
How can we accept this? How can we accept the fact that they are just going to save their asses like that, They really don’t deserve that chance, neither does the mining company of the Chilean miners who were trapped in there for months, nor the Chinese oil company that is responsible for the even bigger oil spill in China, or all the other thousands of companies responsible for the deterioration and destruction of our planet and society. When did we begin to accept this?
I’m so sick of it, sick of being treated like shit and seeing the people around me being treated in the same way, And I can consider myself fucking lucky, I don’t live in a developing country, I can’t possibly grasp how the situation is in worse off countries. We are being raped in the ass, we are being overfed with lies and filth, we are a big fat consuming pig, constantly fed with bullshit until our bellies burst and we are replaced with another one, and i’m SICK OF IT. And it’s not just the big companies that do this, politicians do it all the time, hell, its their job, to lull us into a sense of comfort while they continue fuck us in the ass.
We are many, we are so many more than they, why do we let them fuck us over like this? We are stronger, in this so called democracy our votes are more, but theirs weigh more. How is that democratic?
I don’t know about you, but i’m not going to sit idly by while we are being perpetually trapped in a circle of assraping, I’m going to do like Marsellus Wallace in Pulp Fiction and go medievel on their asses.
For all you retards who cant read in english, I just bought myself a new domain and blog www.jagvillsova.nu visit it!
För alla er kioskmongon som inte kan läsa engelska så har jag nu www.jagvillsova.nu
Many moons have passed since I last talked to you, I’ve managed to move out of my parents house, into my own room on a corridor in the vicinity of my new school, It’s good, more on this later, now to more urgent matters.
Last night Sweden voted for parliament, The Moderate party(Right wing liberals) and their right wing Alliance won, but not really, because they did not get a mandate majority, and the Swedish Democrats party, a downright racist party got 5,7 % of the votes, granting them 20 mandates in parliament.
This comes as no surprise to me, what surprised me is the stupidity of people that voted for them thinking they were a clean party, just focusing on immigration policy, a subject that is indeed a problem in this country, but the Swedish democrats party(SD for short) has been repeatedly frozen out of debates and political discussion by most of the other big parties, but has been debunked and confronted in argumentation with certain public figures, it wasnt enough, the freeze-out gave them martyrdom, and then came this.
A campaign ad showing our statebudget and two brake levers, one saying “Immigrationbudget” the other one, “Pensionary budget”, and then an old lady in a rollator is slowly walking towards the immigration one, and then suddenly a score of women in burquas and babies ran past the old lady and tries to grab the “Pensionary budget” brake lever, and then “Vote for the Swedish Democrats”. It was the most racist thing i’ve ever seen, but that’s not the bad(or worse) part, the Swedish Television channel 4 decided to censor it, CENSOR IT! Great use of our freedom of speech, guys. Not only did they counteracted the very same constitutional law that gives them the right to broadcast their programs, they probably gave SD more votes, the hypocritical cunts!
I sure as hell don’t support SD or even care for what they stand for, hell, you could say I even hate them, which I do, but I will defend their right to say the stupid shit they say any day of the week. If just one sharp politician that knows how to properly use rethorics would’ve taken up the debate with SD, the racist pricks would’ve been ridiculed and seen for what they truly are, stupid fucking redneck racists in suits. Their Oh, so carismatic leader is called Jimmie Åkesson, a smug bastard in glasses and a suit, a man that wants to ban Jazz music, because it’s an UNSWEDISH musical tradition(link, in swedish). Because nobody got a majority in the election, SD now has the opportunity to be something called a scalemaster, having enough mandates to tip over the scale to one specific side of the two blocks(right and left). But both the left and the right have said they won’t work with SD, statements that I hope they will back up.
Now many of you probably live in countries that already have right wing extremists in your parliaments or even in power, and are wondering what the big deal is, I’ll tell you what it is.
THIS IS SWEDEN GODDAMNIT, not some backwards eastern european country with no morals and/or lousy welfare.
Sweden used to be a country that was the envy of Europe, we didn’t have racists in our parliaments, universal healthcare and a warm and empathic attitude towards fugitives, this used to be a place people wanted to live in. Now whats going to happen?(I’m overreacting, but still!)
One good thing is that the majority of the swedish people was outraged by the results, Today many gathered in Stockholms “plattan”(Sergels Torg) and protested against racism and SD.
I’m going to keep fighting the plague that is SD, I hope you will too.
I haven’t been a good blogger, I regret that. I’ve been pre-occupied
The 25th of July 2010, my grandma passed away, on google.com her name is just a notice of death. In life she was much more, It’s easy to take death for granted when it’s not someone you love and hold dear. When it does happen, it puts things into perspective, then twists it around in a violent maelstrom of emotions and thoughts, for a while, its inconceivable that someone you’ve known your whole life and love so much is simply gone, not existent, what’s left is a body.
We got to see her to say our goodbyes in the hospital, that day may have been the worst in my life. Seeing her frail body, my cousins, aunts and parents around her. I get teary-eyed just thinking about it. All I want is one moment more with her, to tell her what I forgot to tell her last time I saw her, “I love you grandma.” I’m not religious so I don’t believe in an afterlife.
The burial ceremony was held yesterday. I was in awe of the amount of people that came, she really was loved by many, and I don’t know if my grandma was religious towards the end. But it was a fitting tribute nonetheless. The realization that she is gone is slowly starting to get to me, I’ve began talking about her in pre-tense. It was a heavy feeling, suiting up to see her for the last time, albeit in a casket. But after the ceremony I felt content, and I could tell my cousins could feel it as well. She was rid of pain and suffering, it’s like people say, she lives on in our memories. We had a memorial for her, with a slideshow of old pictures of her and our family, we were able to laugh at our ridiculous hairdos, funny faces and remember her optimism and her laughter.
I know I will have to deal with death later on in life and I’m not looking forward to it, but until then i will continue to love the people around me, and I hope everyone knows that.
I know she won’t read this, I know it doesn’t make any difference, but I just want to say:
Te amo Abueli, nunca te olvidare.
When I was about 12 years old, I wanted to write a book entitled “The women in my life”. It would contain all my romantic escapades, which at the time was 1. Boy did I have a task ahead of me! Love is complicated, as cliché as that sounds it’s true, Love is complicated and so is living. You can never ever know how life is going to turn out for you, especially when it comes to love. For all those Carpe Diem qoutes being thrown around there sure isnt alot of seizing the day going on, that’s because life cannot be controled, it’s random. Life is an endless stream of possibilites waiting to happen. A day is never the same how monotonous it may seem at the time. The seconds it took to read this sentence has passed and will not ever come back no matter how many times you re-read it.
Love, being an essential part of life goes by the same rules. Just as cooking is science for hungry people(thank you QC), Love is science for lonely people, its trial and error, it’s experimenting, it’s mixing volatile substances with each other, it’s clashing atoms and finding out the outcome.
I don’t know how life or love will turn out for me, I have ideals sure, but there’s only about a 000.000.049% chance of that happening, but it’s still a possibility, and thats good enough for me.
Sleepless nights and pillow fights. 